As for myself, I continue to work on these topics as well, I wanted to share my journey with the world to follow.

So what are you passionate about? What do you do that you don’t care how you look?”

The athlete’s are so strong, both physically and mentally.  They work their bodies and their minds to be in peak performance.

I can remember  competing at the high school level for swimming, and lots of what I did was mental practice.  Visualizing the race, seeing myself swim it, and be victorious in the race.  I wasn’t the “number one” swimmer on my team, but I had the heart and determination to keep going no matter what was going on.  And my coaches loved that about me.  I cheered everyone on, from the rookies, the crew I swam with and the ones above me too (when I was in the middle years of high school).

And that’s what I’m doing with the Olympics…cheering everyone on.  I’ll watch any sport that Canada is in.  And today the women of Canada have done us proud!  4 Olympic Medals in one day!  Amazing job!  I never knew Canada had a strong women’s bob sleigh team, but I guess they do!  Gold and Silver in the 2-man bob sleigh!

I had the oportunity to share my biggest miracle that I’ve had so far in my life.  And that is being alive today at 33 years of age.  Here’s why….

When I was born, I was a premature baby, I was 3 months early, weighing in at 1 pound 12 ounces.  My parents were given the news that I wasn’t expected to live 24hrs.  This was 34 years ago, and the tools/technology that is around to day to help premature babies just wasn’t there in 1976.

But I proved all the doctors wrong, I survived and am still here to this day to blog about it.  I mean, yes there were complications I had to be reminded to breathe, was given blood transfusions, had needles IV’s coming out of my head and feet.  My parents weren’t really able to hold me like normal babies born, I had to live in an incubator for the first month or so.  And only come out of the incubator for short periods of time.

I want to give inspiration to other families who may have premature babies who are going through the same thing my Mum and Dad went through.  I am openly accepting stories from others who wish to share their families trials/triumphs.  I am wishing to put together a book similar to the Chicken Soup for the Soul books.  You can contact me at weweresmall@gmail.com.

Where do you see miracles in your life?  Don’t be afraid to dream big!  What do you want?

I had my first practice again for Sizzle Girls.  We are learning a Samba routine.  It’s a lot of bouncing and moving my pelvis forward and backward and also walking all at the same time.  My ass hurt for 2 days after.  But it was a good hurt.  I know I will have a great looking ass at the end of 14 weeks!   A friend of mine has a really cool head piece that she brought back from Trinidad and Tobago.  It’s full of sequins and feathers.  I can’t wait to show my dance teacher on Tuesday!  I know I’m going to have to work on relaxing my hips to do this show piece.  This will be a good challenge for me!

This week was also busy outside of work.  I was out Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday till 10pm each night except for Monday.  I had fun out at the meetings that I was at, but the last thing I wanted to do yesterday was go to the gym.  But I did go anyway.  I did some work with a trainer and we stretched my glute muscles.  Oooowww!!!!  It hurt so much to stretch it out.  But again, I know it was a good stretch.

Got to keep on track!  This coming week I’m not as busy, I’ll be able to get to the gym a bit more to work out.  Which is a good thing!

I also know that it will get easier.  My body will get used to the workouts and dance practices again.

However now more into the movie, the main character has just gone into the Coyote Ugly bar, she is so timid.  But the bar servers have so much confidence and they know it.  As the movie goes on, the main character has been  building up er confidence and now can get on the bar and sing.

Dianna teaches us in Burlesque about being confident.  How it’s the confidence in a woman that makes her sexy.  The clothes she wears and the make-up on her face helps.  But I think the sexy clothes and make-up can just be extra help.  The way I walk and carry myself in the world with more confidence.  I can walk down town Calgary wearing my jeans and a t-shirt and still feel sexy and confident.  Just as much as I can wear a sexy dress and make-up and feel confident.

That is what both WarriorSage and Burlesquercise has been teaching me.  To grow my confidence in myself to feel sexy is to feel confident in myself.

I’ve also  been working on other areas of myself, I got back to the gym finally this week, and have chosen to continue to eat healthy and become more active.  As I continue to drop dress/pant sizes I become even more confident.

Also working on giving myself more love.  By nurturing myself and pausing and telling myself that I love my self because…. or I am proud of myself because…. and why I respect myself is…..  It helps with boosting my own self appreciation.

Women….why do you feel sexy, or what about yourself is sexy?

Men….what are you passionate about, what gets you up in the morning to feel that drive?

This week I also went out and bought a new pair of boots.  They make me feel sexy!  I love them.  If you are friends with me on facebook I have pictures there.  They are almost knee high in length, black leather looking.  Up the back is a corset type lacing.  Big laces cris-crossing with a tie/bow at the top, also black in colour.  There is also a heel as well, not sure the height.  Oh, and the toe is pointy!  I love them!

Also what I love is the way I feel after going to a workout.  Be it at a gym or my dance class.  I finally got back to the gym today after a few months.  It was a good feeling.  I did a workout on the treadmill.  Doing incline’s at different speeds.  I also did some core work and stretching. 

While on the tread mill there was a show on the little tv about a woman losing weight, she had different things to do, food changes, fitness, and also a self esteem practice.  The “expert” took her to a dance class.  A Burlesque dance class.  Now it wasn’t the Calgary Burlesque group that I’m apart of, but another one here in the city.  The lady on the show, watched this troop dance, then was told that she was going to try it out.  The ladies from the burlesque troop were in full costume.  Well what they call costume.  These ladies were dancing in their bra’s and “boy briefs” and fish net stockings.  I knew then that it wasn’t Calgary Burlesquercise.  Myself and the other coyotes who perform for Di don’t dance in our bra’s and underwear.  We are more respectable.  Even the Little Vegas Dance Company, they have some awesome costumes but are always classy and respectable.  Myself in the Sizzle Girls, and the Little Vegas Dance Company can be described as the Pussy Cat Dolls, meets Moulin Rouge, meets the Rockets, meets Broadway.  No nudity what so ever is shown.

Di teaches that it’s confidence that makes a woman sexy.  Not about dancing in your underwear.  I do feel that since dancing with Burlesquercise and doing our show gala back on Dec. 18 has helped me with my confidence.  I am walking different, and have been happy ever since our show.

So yes, my roommate moved out on me in the middle of November, and I scrambled to find a new one.  It took me a full 4 weeks to find someone to move in.  But now I have a room mate who is great, we have good conversations, and he has shown me some of his art that he has painted.

I also completed something off of my vision board, I danced with the Sizzle Girls for my  Burlesque dance classes that I’m apart of.  It was so much fun to dance and perform again!  I loved it!  The burlesque dancing has opened me up in so many ways.  I feel sexy again!  I am much more confident in my body and walk around town with a sense of love for myself and sending love out to everyone.   The spicy side of me can come out to play and it’s okay for her to do so.  I really can’t wait to see what we do in the new year.  Dianna (our coach/instructress) said that we are going to go dirtier.  So we shall see.  I have to keep breathing and stay open when learning the new show piece.  Maybe too, we will be performing more than once this coming year.  That would be so much fun!

My trip home for the Christmas weekend went well.  I like going home to see family, but it’s also a struggle at the same time.  I try to be myself and also be the “nice girl” while at home.  I smile, say the right things, and enjoy my time.  This time while at home I also took some questions to journal each night while at home.  They were all around the theme of what was my deepest offering of love that day.  I had to sit with the questions for a while.  It was hard at times to come up with the answer.

I got to meet my baby Nephew for the first time.  He’s such a cutie!  He’ll be 5 months on the 9th of January.  I am so proud of my sister!  She will raise her son with her amazing husband in a loving way.

With the new year almost upon us, I also think of things that I want to attract or have happen in my life.  I will continue to choose to live healthier.  And I mean that in all aspects of my life.  To eat healthier, get back to taking care of my body by moving it more, or going to the gym to do some weights.  Also do be healthier in things that I love to do.  So that means doing things that make me happy.  Dance is certainly one of them.  Also being around others that I enjoy spending time with.  I have many amazing friends out here in Calgary, that when together we have lots of fun.

As well as to be healthy in my spirituality.  So to keep open to the universe/God to help me when I need help.  And in relationships, I wish to attract a deep man into my life to guide me and open me deeper to God.

What do you wish to attract into your life for 2010?

I am remembering a teaching from WarriorSage.  It’s talked about in many different ways.  It’s all about staying open and connected in all situations.  This can be when life is flowing great, or when life throws curve balls.  This time I’m remembering to stay open when given opportunities that are good.

It will be an interesting week next week.  But if I remember to breathe, and stay open things will go well.  I will stay open and send love out to those I work with, both child and adult.

I know I struggle with staying open when life throws me curve balls.  I do my best to stay grounded and keep breathing.

How do you stay open in the moment?

This time coming we have to say ways on how we have impressed ourselves since our last meeting.  Now since I wasn’t able to go to our Oct. meeting I have lots going on.

However, I can just think about today and list things already that I’ve done this morning to impress myself.  And it is as simple as I got out of bed this morning.  I have had a healthy breakfast, and also packed healthy snacks to have inbetween my work and the Money Mastery meeting this evening.

Over this past week, I impressed myself by passing my exams for St. John Ambulance with amazing flying colours.  As well as on this past weekend, I cleaned my floor in my bedroom, as well as decluttered/cleaned my storage closet.  I ended up throwing away to the garbage 5 bags of stuff.  As well as 4 bags plus 2 boxes of stuff to the Diabetes Association in donation/give aways.  I am proud of myself for doing those things.  I impressed myself!

What have you done to impress yourself recently?

When I got home I decided to clean my bedroom.  I got the entire floor clean, even vacuumed!  While I was cleaning, I found $9!  I am a money master!

When I was finished, I played some great music and danced and celebrated being complete of cleaning my bedroom floor!  It was fun I celebrated dancing on my floor, sending love out to all that I love!

I also picked a Goddess Amulet that I have.  I picked the Dolphin Goddess.  I love dolphins!!   They are amazing!  I am connected to the ocean.  The dolphin Goddess is here to remind me to play and celebrate!  In Ancient Crete the Goddess Delphi was worshiped as Mother Earth, Mother of the Moon, and Sea Goddess.  In Crete the villages were alive and people celebrated life, happy things, and gratitude was everywhere.  Everything was abundant full of life, and happy.

So I celebrated by having a good hot shower.  I have been enjoying a good meal and good conversation with a friend.

What are you going to do to play?